I don't know how long we can last like this. I'm trying really hard but
everyday just feels like the day before. constantly moving in circles
with occasional stops for id-checks. paranoid. scared. absent. you
know what I'm talking of.

I heard that we (SECOND) have the outer-storages filled and will act next week,
maybe it'll make a true difference this time... but to be honest I
don't believe so. The lines have now blurred between us and them.
We act in similar ways as them, we think the same way as them
and we are the same way as them. This is not what I pictured it to be.

Take care of yourself, I know you'll manage. I'll be with you from afar.